Full moon. New Moon. Full Circle

Written 1/10/20:

I wrote these words six months ago right after the new moon in Cancer…

7/10/19

Processing. A week after the solar eclipse and new moon and 3 days after Mercury went retrograde. I’m feeling anxiety and weird sensations. I feel overwhelmed by my emotions sometimes. Stuck in my head, even after practicing yoga and meditating. I know these feelings will pass. I just get caught up at times thinking about the future and where I will be. Kids? Marriage? I feel like I’m on the brink of something. I feel like I’m blooming at 32. Growing pains and challenges and trauma coming to the surface. Where will I be in 5 years? 10?

it’s such a heightened, energetic time right now and I know it’s important to be gentle with myself. I lack creativity and self starting energy right now. I have no motivation to learn my coaching course or get things moving in my business. It feels like a moot point.

this too shall pass.

i am enough.

i am proud of how far I’ve come

i am healing

i am a warrior

i am a soul who feels emotions. They are not my identity

card reading:

1 tenderness—I am safe. I am secure. Being kind to myself. Cherishing the child within. Taking my time. Positive self talk.

2. Goals—I am grounded. Setting a goal. Writing it down and releasing the outcome. small steps make a big difference. This one really resonates because so many times do I think of 20 steps ahead and just want to be ‘there’ even though there is no ‘there.’ One step at a time will get me to my accomplishments but also releasing expectations that come with setting goals. It’s the catch 22 of manifesting and putting energy into something but not obsessing about it.

3. Reflect—I am open. Keeping my eyes open. Joy lives in small places. Reminding me to play and reflect on the good and Simple in this lifetime. Avoid being too serious and PLAY more. Let go of the worry, doubt, resentment and anger.
be. Just be. Be in the present. See what’s right in front of me rather than the past or future.
beauty is in the now