Why "You The Power Within"

Written 3/9/19:

Hi beautiful souls! 👋🏽 ✨My name is Michelle and I’m currently living in San Francisco, CA. The last six months have been nothing short of an amazing and raw awakening. It was cliche; I had moved to a new city, started a new job, I left everything behind for an adventure with my boyfriend and our dog and I trusted the Universe to deliver. But I didn’t know what moving across the country would really, truly, entail. Moving to another city meant unveiling a new layer of myself without even realizing it. Getting out of my comfort zone was an understatement as I left 32 years worth of foundation in NY. Work was more demanding in SF; it required more energy and I felt depleted. I thought I had it all together! I felt great and this new life was amazing. I continued my workout regime and I took my weekly detoxing salt baths, cleansed my space regularly; I thought I was keeping up with my self care. My Mother had instilled in my sister and me the importance of self care as we were sponges for negative energy. I woke up and did the daily grind and felt “fine.” But I wasn’t fine; I was constantly giving away my power and creating energy cords without even being aware of it.

In September, I entered a random tarot card reading contest on Instagram and I received my results in late October. Halloween eve to be exact. The cards revealed that I was on the right path but I was drowning and blocked. I was searching for truth and rest but unable to access it. The cards also said that two of my spirit guides were trying to help me but I wasn’t seeing them. As I read the email, I had been sitting on the couch and dealing with my third cold since I had started work. I knew that I had to do something. I had to take action for my own spiritual and mental wellness. That night as my fiancé had fallen asleep, my third eye was throbbing and I just felt so exhausted. Something was telling me to search for Reiki and chakra healers on Yelp. When I came across one, she resonated with me and as I hovered over the confirm appointment, I felt two taps on my feet. Then a few seconds later, another two. Then, a few seconds later, another two! Tap tap. I knew it was my spirit guides telling me ‘fucking do it’ ‘click confirm already!’ And so I did! 

The Reiki healing session would become the catalyst for this awakening or rather coming home to myself. Ten days after my healing session, during a morning meditation, I envisioned the words ‘the power within you.’ Something (or someone) nudged me into making an instagram. I had to begin taking my power back and healing my throat chakra by sharing my voice and my words.

While I always felt connected to my sixth sense and the spiritual realm, I was not empowered. I didn’t always feel confident in my own skin. I never raised my hand in school. I was scared to have others hear my voice, essentially giving my power away. I could write down my thoughts for hours in a journal or within someone’s birthday card, but speaking up in front of others? Never!

I also felt people’s emotions. I would come home from a long day or social gatherings & feel SO drained. My Mom would tell me that I was a sponge to people’s energy fields; She would give me prayers to protect myself and it would work temporarily but I didn’t have the empowerment tools (I also had deep rooted soul wounds that needed to heal) Looking back now, my soul wasn’t ready yet as I had more work and healing to do during my teens and 20’s. I learned the word ‘empath’ sometime in high school.

I never liked small talk. I always felt a yearning for ‘home,’ I always felt different than others my own age and while I had friends, I would find myself gravitated towards babies & older people; I felt like an old soul, even as a young child. I always had a knowing that there was more to this life even though I couldn’t explain it. I just felt it. I still do. But now I’m learning the tools to connect with my higher self, my soul family, and the power within me. Coming home to myself. Leaning into my power and helping others lean into theirs. There’s no better time than now 💕🌸Thanks for coming along for the ride!🦄